i want to go out to meet people does it mean that i’m lonely? but i don’t want to drink alcohol. i just want to meet people and talk to them. to get to know new people. i want to know what they are up to in life. do i really want to know them. no, i don’t. i don’t fucking want to know anyone. what the fuck? why the fuck do i have to know people. i can live by myself and die by myself. why the fuck do i have to be lonely. i don’t get it. what am i doing here? right now, sitting in my room typing on this stupid machine. do you want to know why i’m here? yes i do. it’s because i’m here that why you are here. i am your soul your, your life, your breath, your heart beat…. see? right now your brain is really smooth that’s because i’m here…. come out, show me who you are. come out right now. i want to see you. what??? what am i thinking?!!! why do i feel like my brain is splitting in two? what’s happening to me? is this the problem i’ve been having?i am a split personality. please god help me. please let me find out what’s happening to me. i don’t want to be like this……. give me a purpose in life gimme something to live for……… i love you. i will always do. don’t ever leave me…. or i will kill you. or i will kill you! like i did to that little girl. aren’t you embarrass that i’m doing this to you.. yes, i am so please fucking stop it already. yeah right, who are you to tell me. i said stop you fucking prick. i won’t, no, i won’t. yes, you will stop now . i order you to stop right now!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhh you fucking piece of crap! get the fuck out of my head right now. who the fuck are you looking at? at me, so get out! this is not your body. leave my body right now. and show yourself. now! ………. out of my body now!
— The Psychotic Mind
